Elsewhere
Kelan ba ko huling napa-away? Hindi ko na maaalala! Sa totoo kasi, kapag tumatanda ka, di ka na makikipag-away gaano, o kaya, hindi na lumalaban mga inaway mo.
Pinaka-huling suntok na tinapon ko ay dun kay Mr. A.D., na hindi gumanti, pero sobrang lakas nung suntok ko na yun a. Full swing yun. At yun ay 4th year high school lang. Although marami akong gustong sapakin sa college, marami ring malalaking tao dun. Ang latest na sugat ko ay mga self-inflicted, super hydrated ang balat-nagasgas sa floor ng pool, na-excite — tumama tuhod sa computer table. Hmp.
At nandito ako sa kama ko, nagrerecreate ng mga battles. Kahit na I have conquered Europe down to Outremer as the English, the whole Northern Europe until the eastern cities of Russia as the Holy Roman Empire, pati, the whole of Eastern Europe as the Teutonic Order, the whole of Outremer as the Kingdom of Jerusalem, madami pa. My cavalry rode through insurmountable odds and trampled down the sturdiest knights Europe has to offer. Kaso, I’m a sorry-ass bitch. I wake up late for school, I’ll be spending an additional year for school, my pants don’t fit right, my shoe laces always get untied, my bag’s zipper sucks. I hug my pillow as I watch after downloading episodes of this girly show. Tapos, I always picture myself somewhere else.
After a few days, babalik na uli ako sa routine ko – and god knows what else.
Seryosohang usapan, marvin-a-year-ago, magugustuhan mo ba si marvin-now? Kaso, si marvin-a-year-ago, ay mapapa-meh, pero ok pa rin, kasi, nasa shit hole si marvin-a-year-ago, anything would be good. Anyway, ok pa rin to, nakahiga sa cute na bedsheets na medyo comfortable, tapos may nakakalat na bucket meal sa labas at masarap na coke. Saka, ang ganda ng laptop ko, fuck you old-marbin! At, ewan ko na sa susunod.
Ang wish ko na lang ngayong bagong umaga ng bagong taon, sana, sana lang talaga, hindi na ko mag-iisa sa kahit anong ginagawa ko. Hmp.
